Time flies.
I can't believe I'm a college senior and have only a year left to supposedly "figure out what I'm going to do with my life forever!" Yeah, right.
I know the questions will never end as I find myself asking some of them to others too- "What are you doing after you graduate?" "Will you be staying in Rochester or heading back to India?" "You want to teach in India right?"
My answer: I have no idea. All I know is that God has a plan. A perfect one.
These last 3 years have been tough. They have also been an incredible experience and I would not change a thing about them. I have made the best friends. I have proven to myself and my stubborn mind that all things are possible with Christ. And I have come far. I love that God wanted me here and again and again He reminds me of that. Whom shall I fear? He continually puts that phrase in my head. And He also continually proves it. He has and will always be right beside us.
It's been three years of searching. Searching for why God wanted me here. Searching for the feeling of home and comfort. Searching for friends and people who truly care about me. Searching in my heart to accept what others say about me. Searching for people I can minister to and make their day a bit brighter. Searching. Discovering the Indian in me become obvious to all those around me but at the same time feeling American. Feeling American but still feeling foreign all the time. Searching.
It's been three years of humbling myself to ask the stupid questions. Some days were hard as I'd hide behind my simple nod, hoping a friend (with their blank stare or shocked look) wouldn't ask me, "You know what that is, right?"
I am learning, however, that I cannot please everyone and I should never have that mindset anyway. I am learning that laughing at yourself feels so good. I do it often actually!
It's been three years of battling with myself. My thoughts, my feelings, and my stubborn attitude. God reminded me today once again- "Whom shall I fear?" He is the stronghold of our lives and if we let Him- He'll hold us tight and guide us every step of our way. The battle belongs to the Lord.
If we let Him.
I have realized that I have not let Him. I wanted control. I needed to feel at home. I needed to have friends. I need. Me, myself, and I. There was no God. When things went well- I thanked Him. When things were rough- I asked for His help. BUT- I did not let Him have me. ALL OF ME. Everything.
This is one of my favorite worship songs now. I love this section:
Yes, the last three years were tough. God was right beside me and He helped me through them though. I am so thrilled and excited to see what's next. I have been searching a lot. I am grateful to say the search for a lot of those things is over. The only search left is in Christ. I will always and forever seek Him. A college senior....... never in my dreams did I think it would even be possible. With Christ all things are possible. Whom shall we fear?
He has been faithful- why will He stop now?
You don't have to have it all together all the time. Give all you are to God and let Him take control. Let Him take your wheel and direct you. Trust me- it feels like real freedom. Real Joy.
Let it be Jesus. Every time.
I can't believe I'm a college senior and have only a year left to supposedly "figure out what I'm going to do with my life forever!" Yeah, right.
I know the questions will never end as I find myself asking some of them to others too- "What are you doing after you graduate?" "Will you be staying in Rochester or heading back to India?" "You want to teach in India right?"
My answer: I have no idea. All I know is that God has a plan. A perfect one.
These last 3 years have been tough. They have also been an incredible experience and I would not change a thing about them. I have made the best friends. I have proven to myself and my stubborn mind that all things are possible with Christ. And I have come far. I love that God wanted me here and again and again He reminds me of that. Whom shall I fear? He continually puts that phrase in my head. And He also continually proves it. He has and will always be right beside us.
It's been three years of searching. Searching for why God wanted me here. Searching for the feeling of home and comfort. Searching for friends and people who truly care about me. Searching in my heart to accept what others say about me. Searching for people I can minister to and make their day a bit brighter. Searching. Discovering the Indian in me become obvious to all those around me but at the same time feeling American. Feeling American but still feeling foreign all the time. Searching.
It's been three years of humbling myself to ask the stupid questions. Some days were hard as I'd hide behind my simple nod, hoping a friend (with their blank stare or shocked look) wouldn't ask me, "You know what that is, right?"
I am learning, however, that I cannot please everyone and I should never have that mindset anyway. I am learning that laughing at yourself feels so good. I do it often actually!
It's been three years of battling with myself. My thoughts, my feelings, and my stubborn attitude. God reminded me today once again- "Whom shall I fear?" He is the stronghold of our lives and if we let Him- He'll hold us tight and guide us every step of our way. The battle belongs to the Lord.
If we let Him.
I have realized that I have not let Him. I wanted control. I needed to feel at home. I needed to have friends. I need. Me, myself, and I. There was no God. When things went well- I thanked Him. When things were rough- I asked for His help. BUT- I did not let Him have me. ALL OF ME. Everything.
This is one of my favorite worship songs now. I love this section:
"Should I ever be abandoned
Should I ever be acclaimed
Should I ever be surrounded by the fire and the flame
There's a name I will remember
There's a name I will proclaim
Let it be, Let it be Jesus
Should I ever be acclaimed
Should I ever be surrounded by the fire and the flame
There's a name I will remember
There's a name I will proclaim
Let it be, Let it be Jesus
For me, to live is Christ
For me, to live is Christ
God I breathe Your name above everything
Let it be, Let it be Jesus"
For me, to live is Christ
God I breathe Your name above everything
Let it be, Let it be Jesus"
Yes, the last three years were tough. God was right beside me and He helped me through them though. I am so thrilled and excited to see what's next. I have been searching a lot. I am grateful to say the search for a lot of those things is over. The only search left is in Christ. I will always and forever seek Him. A college senior....... never in my dreams did I think it would even be possible. With Christ all things are possible. Whom shall we fear?
He has been faithful- why will He stop now?
You don't have to have it all together all the time. Give all you are to God and let Him take control. Let Him take your wheel and direct you. Trust me- it feels like real freedom. Real Joy.
Let it be Jesus. Every time.
